confessions of a 20 year old..

Confessions of a twenty year old!!

Um just sittin idle all alone in my balcony with the wind blowin slow and nice..
Headphones coverin my ears wid darius singin out loud,"if only we could live twice"
I just feel the urge to write down something,
So I just pick my nokia and start typing...

My thots are random and they hover around all my life so far,
Memzz are abundant and to mark many I bear a scar,
The tym I remember I had a row wid a frnd and I made him cry,
But wait,he too left a short mark ryt below my left eye,
I automatically look at my arm just to chk it again,
Is dere still proof of d tym I slit it,oh yea I ws insane,
D frustration of dat nyt and the mixed outflow of d drink I had,
It all just intensified the hatred I had fr life,y ws myn so bad!!??
As I blink my eyes another tym,a picture emerges ryt in front of me,
Its dark and shadowy,i wonder,"is it her??could it be???!!"
she was gorgeous and breathtakin,the first 1 I thot I loved,
For almost two years for her my eyes wept and my heart bled,
Well,nw its ol fyn and over with and done,
Cz later I realised dat all it ws is wat we call infatuation...
Flashes of my two most memorable years in kota appear now,
it was definitely the tym of my life,if u saw it u sure wud be like woww,
It gave me a cpl of friends,and friends for life,forever by my side,
They have known me inside out,wid dem I got nothin to hide,
And now its bruno's voice I hear as "I sit by myself talkin to the moon",
I look at d clock,hw cud it be 3 so soon??!!
Ah,hw does it reallie matter and ryt nw I hardly care,
Sittin in my balcony and just givin the nyt sky a blank stare...
I feel my cheeks gone cold and I touch em to find em wet,
Y do dese eyes flow,ryt nw smthn I find reallie hard to get..
Dn suddenly an image pops up in front of my eyes,all smilin and cheerful,
Is dis wat left my eyes tearful??!!
The picture is faint and far fetched,but yea,i can recognise dat face,
Shez d one who comes up in all my dreamz,keeps runnin and gives me nthng but a chase,
Do I love her??,I wonder!!
But if I do,does she love me too??,oh these thots are pushin me under...

I guess I have had enough for now,its tym to bring this to a close,
Its gonna be sunrise in two hours nw I suppose,
Its hot out here but inside of me I feel so damn cold,
I guess its all coz of d wrds I let out,cnfessions of a twenty year old...
Um gonna lie dwn nw and let my eyes have some rest,
Dunno if it ll come tonight,sleep,u ll have me under ur arrest??!!