Love it is!!

Love can be hard...but its always sweet...and it will always be lovely...this silly thing we call love,makes us do,say,bear,inflict,all the crazy stuff one can think about...a long time back,i vowed to myself to never let this silly thing get the better of me,but i guess love has its own ways...it can enter locked doors,sneak right in when u least expect it to be around...when i look back on the year that has passed,i realise how this thing we call love,just like a connie,crooked thief,picks the lock,even the best 1 u can put on the door to ur heart(a real TMK at this),tiptoes its way in and just stays there in a corner,dormant but brewing silently,only to erupt at a certain moment of time...a lil while before that time,u myt start to get tingles on ur insides,wondering about what the hell is wrong wid u...u can't concentrate on anything,u seem to have lost all ur focus,cant stay still,u keep wondering about something and still are totally unaware of what that can be,but u just cant stop thinking,certain things make u feel funny,u get confused at times about whether to be happy or sad and u just end up being neither of the evil twins...all these are not signs that u r going crazy,ok well yeah,u can say u are going crazy but u just cannot comprehend why...this is just the devil in ur heart dressing up to show itself...and when finally that moment arrives,its usually something or someone that triggers it and kaboom!!!behold the strongest force,probably the best thing to have happened to u and also something u ll once for sure pray shudn't have,this silly thing called love...the timing of that moment is actually very crucial in some people's lives,just like it was in myn or rather to say just like it was in ruining myn...the time around which this explosion of emotions took place inside me was the time i actually realised that i had already lost the most imp battle of my life,the battle of love...she,who had conjured up this strange feeling inside me was going through something similar,only for someone that wasn't me...ooohh,that lucky bastard,ok,i myt actually seem to hate him,but i seriously don't...rationally speaking,well that guy was just better or maybe was in d right place at the right time...the heartbreak was immensely heart rendering but maybe i was spared of the pain of rejection...or maybe not,coz even if she didnt get to say no to me,i knew that already...or just to comfort myself,i may say that maybe,just a maybe here,maybe she would have nodded her head in approval and not sideways...but whatever,that rendezvous never happened,and i m gonna try to the best of my strength that it doesnot till i breathe...its strange,its been quite some time now,i might even get to celebrate my 1st anniversary of heartbreak,not for a day,but i guess for a couple of em coz it wasnt just a particular day that gave it to me,it was that damned week or two over which the mystery of my craziness and all the shit unfolded...there was and there still aint anything to comfort myself,the only fact that keeps me going even now is that she existed,she does too now and she ll for a long long time(I actually do pray for that),that she is the one I fell in real love with,that i actually found someone worth more than any damn thing for me in the whole wide world out there...and the best part in all of this,that atleast she won this silly thing we call love and with what grandeur...she can manage a smile,being with the guy(yea,the lucky bastard)...the love that I hold back,is(only according to me,mind it)probably much more than what they share summed up both ways,this love would have been enough for the both of us(IF ONLY!!),all she would ever need to do is just have a lil faith in me,but whatever,i seem to have started sounding like a sore looser...no,that ain't what I am...they say,in this thing called love,(dunno whether i should be calling it silly anymore,it definitely got the better of ME),there z always a winner but also exists a looser heart...well,i don't mind being the latter coz even then i do get to be with her...so what if not in person.i got my words like these right here,then on d occasional times i do manage to sleep,i have my dreamz(there z nothing wrong in dreaming about something even when u know u cannot have it,at least I take this as a fact)...I do manage to find her everywhere around me,well yea,she is unaware of the fact...a couple of occasions when we actually still do get to talkin,she wonders if I could ever manage to be in the so called committed league she z a part of,and all i wonder is,how the hell do i keep my mouth shut at this very instant...but yea,just so u know, i am doing a fairly good job at it and with all the time under my belt now,i seem to have lost any regret i had for failing yet again...i might not have succeeded in being loved back by the most beautiful girl in my world but i still did fall for her and yea,it does get a lil tuff at times,coping up wid d realisation,but i found my salvation in acceptance...i may not be a great guy,but i know my love is and ll be,it myt just be eternal too,or so i hope and i have a fairly strong understanding of my words now,yea,love can be and will be hard,but it will always be lovely,always worth the pain,the wait,the sacrifice and definitely worth the fight,even if its the last 1 u got in you...what a great thing called love(silly does sound a lot more dramatic though!!)...

Seconded...

It doesn't matter if u ask me to wait,
Its just a period of time,
This too shall pass,I tell myself,
There is no point in cryin...

What actually keeps bothering my mind,
Is how u just cannot comprehend,
Being seconded always for him by you,
Is not something that I can stand...

He brings u tears and gives u fears,
Its me who takes them away,
But still its his words and what he does,
That makes u n ur mood to sway...

Each time I meet or talk to u,
I try to make it f a special kind,
But still his thoughts and how he feels,
Is all that z on ur mind...