confessions of a 20 year old..

Confessions of a twenty year old!!

Um just sittin idle all alone in my balcony with the wind blowin slow and nice..
Headphones coverin my ears wid darius singin out loud,"if only we could live twice"
I just feel the urge to write down something,
So I just pick my nokia and start typing...

My thots are random and they hover around all my life so far,
Memzz are abundant and to mark many I bear a scar,
The tym I remember I had a row wid a frnd and I made him cry,
But wait,he too left a short mark ryt below my left eye,
I automatically look at my arm just to chk it again,
Is dere still proof of d tym I slit it,oh yea I ws insane,
D frustration of dat nyt and the mixed outflow of d drink I had,
It all just intensified the hatred I had fr life,y ws myn so bad!!??
As I blink my eyes another tym,a picture emerges ryt in front of me,
Its dark and shadowy,i wonder,"is it her??could it be???!!"
she was gorgeous and breathtakin,the first 1 I thot I loved,
For almost two years for her my eyes wept and my heart bled,
Well,nw its ol fyn and over with and done,
Cz later I realised dat all it ws is wat we call infatuation...
Flashes of my two most memorable years in kota appear now,
it was definitely the tym of my life,if u saw it u sure wud be like woww,
It gave me a cpl of friends,and friends for life,forever by my side,
They have known me inside out,wid dem I got nothin to hide,
And now its bruno's voice I hear as "I sit by myself talkin to the moon",
I look at d clock,hw cud it be 3 so soon??!!
Ah,hw does it reallie matter and ryt nw I hardly care,
Sittin in my balcony and just givin the nyt sky a blank stare...
I feel my cheeks gone cold and I touch em to find em wet,
Y do dese eyes flow,ryt nw smthn I find reallie hard to get..
Dn suddenly an image pops up in front of my eyes,all smilin and cheerful,
Is dis wat left my eyes tearful??!!
The picture is faint and far fetched,but yea,i can recognise dat face,
Shez d one who comes up in all my dreamz,keeps runnin and gives me nthng but a chase,
Do I love her??,I wonder!!
But if I do,does she love me too??,oh these thots are pushin me under...

I guess I have had enough for now,its tym to bring this to a close,
Its gonna be sunrise in two hours nw I suppose,
Its hot out here but inside of me I feel so damn cold,
I guess its all coz of d wrds I let out,cnfessions of a twenty year old...
Um gonna lie dwn nw and let my eyes have some rest,
Dunno if it ll come tonight,sleep,u ll have me under ur arrest??!!

My BfF

well,i sit down today in front of my lappie with a resolution,
to do something i have been wishin to do, for way too long,
honour her with an apt description,
my bff,with whom there is no right fr me and there is nothin wrong...

I call her ronnie,have known her since the spring of 09,
since i met her,i hvnt found another frnd so fine,
when i look back now,i realise we hv a come a long way together,
and each day i wish,i just wish we stay the same forever and ever...

now definin her in words,not so tuff for me,seem to knw her so well,
always asks me wat wud she do widout me,my luvlie mademoiselle,
shez carefree,shez independent and the sweetest one around,
if i could,i would keep her wrapped away from the world,a gem any1 wud wish they found...

shez funnie,shez crazy,she can turn ur world upside down,
her eyes are so clear,so deep,dun look too long or u r sure to drown,(:P)
shez a child at heart,and is so damn cute,wud give barbie a run fr money,
her smile is d best 1 i knw,even if at times she looks like a funny bunny...:D

there is so much dat i can go on to put in words about her,
lately i remember her askin me ,"oye ullu,wanna be my chauffer?",
she brought me from being armaan to just being ME,
and then 1 day put in a U where there lay an E..(aur kuch rhyme h ni kia :P)

she is always skeptical about,never satisfied with the way she looks,
what she must wear the next day is more imp even on an xam than goin thru the books,:P
she is so lazyyy,just dun get me started on this,
let her sleep for the whole day,oh yea,fr her its eternal bliss...

lets move over to her eating habbits,and mind it,she loves to eat,
she ll order a zillion different things none of which ll ever be eaten complete,
the nescafe's ice tea is what she likes to drink whatever be the reason,
and with her i luv it too,we never miss it fr anythin,be it summer or be it the winter season...

well,i could fill a thousand pages if i went on to write about her all that i know ov,
she is just so amazin,just so wnderful and so damn beautiful and as pure as a dove,
i knw when she reads this,shez gonna be just too overwhelmed and ecstatic,
but what can i say,after all said and done, she is so so charismatic...

now i come to a close to this small effort from me to say a word or two,
to let her knw"this is just a part of what i feel about you,
just be the same sweetie cuz being by ur side is the best thing to hv happened to me,
a promise i give,no matter what happens,this ammu ll always be there for u,ronnie"!!!!

A comebak..

Hmare liye to har din ek yaad hai...har raat me chupa ek aansu hai...
har shabd me chupi ek kahani aur har muskaan k peeche ek gham ki nishani hai...

Hum to shabdon se bhaaga krte the,hume to shayar bnaya hmari tanhaayi ne...mohabbat me unki gaane gungunana chahte the,par aansu dikhaye sirf unki judaai ne...peene chahe the sang jiske khushi k jaam,maikhaane ka aadi bnaya unhi ki rusvaayi ne...

Chahte hain unhe hum kitna,kaash kabhi unhe bta paate,
roye hain akele me bahot,kaash unke saamne bhi in ashkon ko baha paate
jazbaat chupana aadat ho gyi hai,kaash kabhi to inhe jata paate...
kaash hum apni har baat se is kaash ko mita paate...