Broken Strings...

I was down and I was there,just sat down to let it sink,
They said its okay,life doesnt stop with all these things,
I  knew just pain,self destruction,drove ME to the brink,
They said just move on and welcome all that life with it brings,
I was lost,heard it all and thought,ok,I ll give this a chance,
They said the pain will pass,it hasnt coz the wound still stings..
I tried it all,time since then has been just a blur or a state of trance,
They said I ll forget,I havent,its all afresh even after 3 full springs,
I wanna ask all who said let it go,u do knw,but u did not feel it all,
Show me how u fly,oh wait,do that after I take away ur wings!!
Give urself a fall,u cnt rise from,come teach me how to then walk tall,
U asked me to let go and listen to the song that life to us all sings,
Walk a mile down that road and then u might know the me that u see,
Trust me when I say,try all u want,u can never play a song on broken strings...
U can keep on tryin till u want,but u can never play again on broken strings....

Hmaare aansuon ki keemat bas itni si hui,
Vo ik rumaal haathon me thama kar chal diye,
Jinke chehre pe muskaan laane ka khyaal rkhke hmne soche bina kadam angaaron pe rakh diye,
Vo ye kehkr alvida keh gye k muaaf kr dena agar koi khata hui!!!

A thot at 3 am

Ye sochkr apne dil k darwaaze band kr diye the humne,
Is zaalim dunia ki nafrat se mehfuuz ye ho jaega...
Tum aaye zindagi me to ehsaas hua,
Sang isi k kisi k pyaar se b to mehruum ye reh jaega...
Aj fir usi mod pe aa khada hua hu,
Kuch cheezein bas badal gyi hain...
Tab bas aansuon ka sahara tha,
Aj in aankhon me kuch haseen yaadein bhi chamakti hain...
Tab tumhare saamne ashk bha dia krte the...
Aj tumhare liye ye boondein andheron me damakti hain...
Tab tanhaayi ka dard tumhe sunaya krte the...
Aj sannaaton se tumhari baatein kia krte hain...
Dua me tab bhi tum h the,aj bhi tumhara h zikr khuda se kia krte hain...
Tab sawaal tumhari khushi ka krte the,aj tumhara saath paane ki ichha bhi zaahir kr dete hain...
Duur tab bhi the tum hmse,paas aj bhi nahi...
Tb sirf apne pyaar me dehelte the,
Aj tumhare pyaar me beete kuch lamhe bhi jala jaaya krte hain...
Anjaan tum tb bhi the,ilm tumhe aj bhi nahi...
Tb tumse haal e dil me apne ishq ka ehsaas chupaya krte the...
Aj dard e dil me tumhari judai k gham par ek muskaan ka parda daal dia krte hain...
Khyaalon me waqt bitaane ki aadat to hamesha se hai hme..
Aj fir aise h ek khyaal ne ye sab likhva dia...
Tb is kahaani k aakhri harf ki talaash ki bechaini me duube rehte the...
Aj tumse duuri ne hme is afsaane k anjaam tk pahuncha dia...

The wrost part about loving you.

The worst part about falling for you was not that I knew that I knew that you wouldn't love me back because there was someone else already rising in your heart. It wasn't just keeping quiet and still falling for you and staying in love. It even wasn't knowing that the guy didn't love you back as much. Neither was it my belief in the fact that what I had for you was so much more,so much better. It also wasn't being with you all the time but only as your closest friend(or so i believe). I guess it couldn't even have been faking a smile when with you even after the fact that you are the only person I could be ME any longer,not even crying all these nights,asking myself,"WHY!!!!???". I guess there is something even worse than reassuring you of someone else 's love in spite of being aware of the fact that it is long gone. I guess the worst part about loving you is 'ME', sitting here all alone, writing all of this, knowing that it was always me putting through all of this and for what, for this silly thing I called LOVE.

jinhe hm bhula nhi paate,vo bhi kbhi bhule se hi yaad to hme krte honge...jinka naam har dam hmare labon pe rehta hai,vo mehfil me ya tanhaai me kabhi to baat hmaari bhi krte honge...ye nahi maangte ki vo bhi usi kadar chahen hme jaise hm unhe maangte hain....,
lekin dil k kisi kone me to hme rkhne k liye dua us khuda k saamne vo bhi bhrte honge...

confessions of a 20 year old..

Confessions of a twenty year old!!

Um just sittin idle all alone in my balcony with the wind blowin slow and nice..
Headphones coverin my ears wid darius singin out loud,"if only we could live twice"
I just feel the urge to write down something,
So I just pick my nokia and start typing...

My thots are random and they hover around all my life so far,
Memzz are abundant and to mark many I bear a scar,
The tym I remember I had a row wid a frnd and I made him cry,
But wait,he too left a short mark ryt below my left eye,
I automatically look at my arm just to chk it again,
Is dere still proof of d tym I slit it,oh yea I ws insane,
D frustration of dat nyt and the mixed outflow of d drink I had,
It all just intensified the hatred I had fr life,y ws myn so bad!!??
As I blink my eyes another tym,a picture emerges ryt in front of me,
Its dark and shadowy,i wonder,"is it her??could it be???!!"
she was gorgeous and breathtakin,the first 1 I thot I loved,
For almost two years for her my eyes wept and my heart bled,
Well,nw its ol fyn and over with and done,
Cz later I realised dat all it ws is wat we call infatuation...
Flashes of my two most memorable years in kota appear now,
it was definitely the tym of my life,if u saw it u sure wud be like woww,
It gave me a cpl of friends,and friends for life,forever by my side,
They have known me inside out,wid dem I got nothin to hide,
And now its bruno's voice I hear as "I sit by myself talkin to the moon",
I look at d clock,hw cud it be 3 so soon??!!
Ah,hw does it reallie matter and ryt nw I hardly care,
Sittin in my balcony and just givin the nyt sky a blank stare...
I feel my cheeks gone cold and I touch em to find em wet,
Y do dese eyes flow,ryt nw smthn I find reallie hard to get..
Dn suddenly an image pops up in front of my eyes,all smilin and cheerful,
Is dis wat left my eyes tearful??!!
The picture is faint and far fetched,but yea,i can recognise dat face,
Shez d one who comes up in all my dreamz,keeps runnin and gives me nthng but a chase,
Do I love her??,I wonder!!
But if I do,does she love me too??,oh these thots are pushin me under...

I guess I have had enough for now,its tym to bring this to a close,
Its gonna be sunrise in two hours nw I suppose,
Its hot out here but inside of me I feel so damn cold,
I guess its all coz of d wrds I let out,cnfessions of a twenty year old...
Um gonna lie dwn nw and let my eyes have some rest,
Dunno if it ll come tonight,sleep,u ll have me under ur arrest??!!

My BfF

well,i sit down today in front of my lappie with a resolution,
to do something i have been wishin to do, for way too long,
honour her with an apt description,
my bff,with whom there is no right fr me and there is nothin wrong...

I call her ronnie,have known her since the spring of 09,
since i met her,i hvnt found another frnd so fine,
when i look back now,i realise we hv a come a long way together,
and each day i wish,i just wish we stay the same forever and ever...

now definin her in words,not so tuff for me,seem to knw her so well,
always asks me wat wud she do widout me,my luvlie mademoiselle,
shez carefree,shez independent and the sweetest one around,
if i could,i would keep her wrapped away from the world,a gem any1 wud wish they found...

shez funnie,shez crazy,she can turn ur world upside down,
her eyes are so clear,so deep,dun look too long or u r sure to drown,(:P)
shez a child at heart,and is so damn cute,wud give barbie a run fr money,
her smile is d best 1 i knw,even if at times she looks like a funny bunny...:D

there is so much dat i can go on to put in words about her,
lately i remember her askin me ,"oye ullu,wanna be my chauffer?",
she brought me from being armaan to just being ME,
and then 1 day put in a U where there lay an E..(aur kuch rhyme h ni kia :P)

she is always skeptical about,never satisfied with the way she looks,
what she must wear the next day is more imp even on an xam than goin thru the books,:P
she is so lazyyy,just dun get me started on this,
let her sleep for the whole day,oh yea,fr her its eternal bliss...

lets move over to her eating habbits,and mind it,she loves to eat,
she ll order a zillion different things none of which ll ever be eaten complete,
the nescafe's ice tea is what she likes to drink whatever be the reason,
and with her i luv it too,we never miss it fr anythin,be it summer or be it the winter season...

well,i could fill a thousand pages if i went on to write about her all that i know ov,
she is just so amazin,just so wnderful and so damn beautiful and as pure as a dove,
i knw when she reads this,shez gonna be just too overwhelmed and ecstatic,
but what can i say,after all said and done, she is so so charismatic...

now i come to a close to this small effort from me to say a word or two,
to let her knw"this is just a part of what i feel about you,
just be the same sweetie cuz being by ur side is the best thing to hv happened to me,
a promise i give,no matter what happens,this ammu ll always be there for u,ronnie"!!!!